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I Choose Elena
I Choose Elena

I Choose Elena

On Trauma, Memory and Survival

Mood Indigo


144 Pages, 4.5 x 7

Formats: Trade Paper, Mobipocket, EPUB

Trade Paper, $14.95 (US $14.95) (CA $19.95)

Publication Date: May 2020

ISBN 9781999683399

Rights: US & CA

The Indigo Press (May 2020)


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One woman's tale of recovery and reclamation of self years after a traumatic sexual assault

Aged 15 and preparing for her second Gymnastics World Championship, Lucia Osborne-Crowley was violently raped on a night out. The injuries she sustained ended her gymnastics career, and eventually manifested in chronic illness, which medical professionals now believe can be caused by untreated trauma. Her path to healing began a decade later when she shared her secret for the very first time. Finding solace in writers like Elena Ferrante and Rupi Kaur, she learned how to express her suffering and began to rediscover vulnerability and resilience in the face of a formerly unbearable trauma. Her investigations reveal profound societal failures—of law, justice, education, and medicine—and suggest only empathy can break the cycle of sexual violence. Eloquent, defiant, and honest, I Choose Elena is the story of how a young woman reclaimed her body.


"Startlingly intelligent, disturbing, profound and moving, I Choose Elena shows us that the #MeToo movement has grown roots, and that for survivors of rape and sexual assault, the revolution is just beginning. Osborne-Crowley gives us darkness wrought in light and the hope she offers is as palpable as it is hard-won." April Ayers Lawson, author, Virgin and Other Stories

"Thank-you Lucia Osborne-Crowley for writing I Choose Elena, for your bold and precise testimony on the devastation of sexual violence, on the body’s extraordinary and destructive compulsion to contain its own trauma. Every one of the insights you share is extremely hard-won, and I am so grateful to you for putting them into this incredible book." —Rosie Price, author, What Red Was

"This book burrowed deep under my skin. A searing, potent testament to the vital necessity of articulation in the struggle for women to own their bodies and find a language to talk about violence and trauma." —Jessica Andrews, author, Saltwater

"A fierce, eloquent meditation on trauma, #MeToo, the body, pain and memory." —Sinéad Gleeson, author, Constellations

"Beautiful and sad and moving and too real in the finest way." —Irish Times

Author Biography

Lucia Osborne-Crowley is a journalist, essayist, writer, and legal researcher. Her news reporting has appeared in ABC News, Guardian, Huffington Post, The Wall Street Journal, and Women’s Agenda. Her long-form writing has appeared in The Lifted Brow and Meanjn.